Because that's a stupid conversation to have on the phone. I believed it was something we both deserved to hear and say in person.
[Because in some small ways he's trying to do better by himself, and in the process that sometimes means doing better by others.]
No. She won't trust you like she did. Whatever comes out of it will be more honest. Maybe messier. It usually is when blood is involved.
I'm going to say one more thing, and if you want me to go, I go, and that's it.
[He spreads his hands and drops them by his sides again.]
The fighting's not so bad. It's an outlet. It's not as... It doesn't tear both ways. I wouldn't mind if we still did that. Without the biting. I know what that does to you, and I... It's hard on my control in different ways. Bad ones.
[Faith doesn't answer straight away. It would be easier to reject the offer out of hand. Be completely done with him and having him out of her life entirely. One less complication. But having someone to fight that she could truly let loose on? Anyone else she fought here she'd hold back on at least somewhat. Because she didn't legitimately want to hurt them.]
I could use someone to kick the shit out of from time to time...
[Have someone to let loose her Slayer on since the battles here were few and far between.]
[This part is easier, more familiar, an effortless cockiness he doesn't have to reach for.]
Or I'll find you first. Glad we worked this out. Be seeing you.
[It's a relief, as he has few outlets of that nature himself. More so because the night at the fountain felt...dirty...in a way that left him uncharacteristically uncomfortable and doubting. This is cleaner. He closes the door behind him on his way out.]
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Date: 2022-07-29 02:23 am (UTC)[Because in some small ways he's trying to do better by himself, and in the process that sometimes means doing better by others.]
No. She won't trust you like she did. Whatever comes out of it will be more honest. Maybe messier. It usually is when blood is involved.
I'm going to say one more thing, and if you want me to go, I go, and that's it.
[He spreads his hands and drops them by his sides again.]
The fighting's not so bad. It's an outlet. It's not as... It doesn't tear both ways. I wouldn't mind if we still did that. Without the biting. I know what that does to you, and I... It's hard on my control in different ways. Bad ones.
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Date: 2022-07-30 12:50 am (UTC)I could use someone to kick the shit out of from time to time...
[Have someone to let loose her Slayer on since the battles here were few and far between.]
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Date: 2022-07-30 01:03 am (UTC)[This part is easier, more familiar, an effortless cockiness he doesn't have to reach for.]
Or I'll find you first. Glad we worked this out. Be seeing you.
[It's a relief, as he has few outlets of that nature himself. More so because the night at the fountain felt...dirty...in a way that left him uncharacteristically uncomfortable and doubting. This is cleaner. He closes the door behind him on his way out.]