Don't you get it? Roman is never going to leave me alone. I could be on top of a mountain or at the bottom of the ocean and he'd be there behind me. Until I fucking lock myself back up in his damn cage, he's never gonna go away. Never, Faith. And -
[She hates herself for saying it. She hates him for forcing them into this situation]
Even if we break every damn bone - even if we kill him - he comes back. This damn city loves him. Fucking bastard. But - Faith, and I swear to god that I love you - but if you wanna be with me, you gotta accept he's fucking there too.
[She's yelling though it's out of frustration rather than anger. After a beat, she adds,]
[Faith can feel her own rage building, but she's never going to direct it at Dinah. Never again. She wants to keep what she has with her. It's one of the few things in this fucking place that makes sense.]
Then why'd you even tell me it happened? It's not like I can stop myself from being upset about what he did. [Part of her wonders if Dinah can't stop herself from being around the man, either. Like some awful attraction.] Am I supposed to just not care?
Because I LOVE you. And if you found out and I hadn’t told you? It’s even worse right? Faith, I’m just so sorry. Sorry it’s happened. Just sorry for everything. I’m sorry for telling you. I’m just -
[Dinah shrugs and almost collapses onto her bed. Her voice had been getting dangerously high but as defeat steals into her posture, the rattling objects still.]
I love you so god-damn much, Faith. I don’t wanna hurt you. You’re the best thing in my life. I don’t wanna hurt you.
I love you too, Di... it just... it hurts me when you're hurting.
[She follows Dinah to the bed, sitting beside her.]
I want to help you. Somehow. I just... I don't know how. And it sounds like you're asking me to do nothing at all. To just watch as he continues to do things like this to you over and over again.
What the fuck else can we do? I've tried to fight. I've tried to stay away. They don't work. I don't know what else to do except wait for him. Or go back? He'll back off if I lock the cage again.
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Date: 2022-07-08 09:48 pm (UTC)[She hates herself for saying it. She hates him for forcing them into this situation]
Even if we break every damn bone - even if we kill him - he comes back. This damn city loves him. Fucking bastard. But - Faith, and I swear to god that I love you - but if you wanna be with me, you gotta accept he's fucking there too.
[She's yelling though it's out of frustration rather than anger. After a beat, she adds,]
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
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Date: 2022-07-09 01:42 pm (UTC)Then why'd you even tell me it happened? It's not like I can stop myself from being upset about what he did. [Part of her wonders if Dinah can't stop herself from being around the man, either. Like some awful attraction.] Am I supposed to just not care?
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Date: 2022-07-09 02:46 pm (UTC)[Dinah shrugs and almost collapses onto her bed. Her voice had been getting dangerously high but as defeat steals into her posture, the rattling objects still.]
I love you so god-damn much, Faith. I don’t wanna hurt you. You’re the best thing in my life. I don’t wanna hurt you.
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Date: 2022-07-09 04:20 pm (UTC)[She follows Dinah to the bed, sitting beside her.]
I want to help you. Somehow. I just... I don't know how. And it sounds like you're asking me to do nothing at all. To just watch as he continues to do things like this to you over and over again.
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Date: 2022-07-11 08:53 pm (UTC)